1. Physical affection and love. Not just going through the acts, but feeling it.

2. I'm not afraid of her but I'm afraid she'll end up angry and bitter, taking it out on our daughters (like I do currently).

3. Can't really ask her to feel attracted to me. But she knows that's what I need.

4. She'll know this when I leave.

5. She's trying to reconnect. Trying damn hard. Trying as best as she can, but it's not working because she's not attracted to me.

Sometimes you have to just accept what life has given you, no matter how hard you fight.