Rockin' and Rulin' My World

[pearlharbr]

Re: the weight gain, I kind of miss the LBS diet! Yes, yes, yes, I know it was very unhealthy. I was scared to get a cold because I thought it could easily spiral into pneumonia. But damn if I didn't look good! Plus I could eat whatever I wanted and not gain an ounce. I never lost my appetite so I was eating burgers and potatoes and chocolate shakes. Now I've gained 12 pounds in the past two months! Ack! And I feel fat and ugly which makes me sad which just makes me want to eat more. Grrr.

Rocked, you just do what's best for you. Do not let H's words get to you. What's best for you is what's best for the kids now. You need to take care of you in order to properly take care of them. H is just pissed off because he doesn't get to control how this is going down. He wants to put on the brakes to regain that control. If you have proof of the A then you have grounds and can file and move forward.

Always remember that you did try everything to save your M. You gave him space, you let him come back and wanted to work things out. H is the one who wouldn't agree to go to counseling. H is the one who chose his relationship with OW over his M and his family. His choices, his consequences.

Hugs!