The L meeting went very well. Stuff with H since that meeting... not so well. Bottom line is that (as I have noticed seems to happen often in these sitches) even though he is the one that instigated all this, had an A, talked D, etc etc etc... when I am the one who takes action and moves forward, he gets cold feet. ugh. Now I just want to move on and move forward. He accuses me of "vindictiveness" and "not putting the kids first" because I am moving too fast and pushing too hard. He wants us to remain separated for a year and "sort things out" amicably. He said in an email to me "why can't you just admit we are two decent people who got it wrong?"
His issue is that for it to move as fast as I want it to, I need grounds, which I have... but he doesn't want to admit to in a legal document.
But that's his choice. I still have ways I can move this forward, with or without his cooperation.
On a more positive note... LOVING the belly dancing! I have lots to learn and it is more of a work out than people would think but it is so fun! And I am doing it together with D14 which is even better.
Now that I am in the process of separating our finances, I am actually in much better shape financially. I am getting on my feet and even sqeezing in a little bit of room here and there for a few splurges on me. No big ticket items yet but a few cute belts and scarves to spruce up the wardrobe. I also decided to splurge on some highlights for my hair.
I am also finding life is getting back to "normal" in terms of doing things I used to do pre-bomb... reading , watching TV etc. And, I actually have put a few pounds back on too, but just enough to actually look healthy. People aren't asking me if I have an eating disorder anymore! LOL
I am sad about Puppy too, although I also understand. I find I am also here less and less. So Kara.... YES would love to see you in the alt!
