Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

I still haven't contacted W back yet. For some reason I just can't bring myself to do it. She emailed me again late last night asking for a house update and if she could call me today. I honestly don't even want to talk to her right now. She's contacted me 5 times since last Friday and I haven't responded at all. Not sure why.

Met with my IC this morning. He thinks I'm angry and it's because I'm still doing things to help us both but she only does things for herself. I'm not sure. I don't feel the anger anymore. IC suggested I call her to give her an update. Suggested if she says anything about why I haven't responded to tell her I'm weary and worn out from the past couple of weeks and need a break. Not sure this is really how I feel. I can't even sort out my emotions lately.

Her brother is getting married this weekend. That's a bit difficult for me that I'll miss out on that. The ironic part is the next week she could file for D if she chooses. I think she's a bridesmaid in the wedding. I wonder if when she's standing at the altar listening to the priest talk about marriage and then the vows, if it will touch her at all. Sort of interesting that within a week's time she can witness the birth of a marriage and the death of a marriage.

I don't know what I want right now. I do know that I need to get back to GAL which I have put on hold the past few weeks because of the house sitch. I just want to be able to catch my breath right now...get the house sold and worry about her later.