Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

Took a mental health day from work. I just had so much weighing on my mind of things I needed to do here at home that I wouldn't have been much use at work.

While I'm doing my cleaning and other stuff I'm also spending time thinking. Was up late last night reading some other threads and a recurring theme was letting the WAS go, giving them the divorce they want. So I'm going to bite the bullet and call lawyers this afternoon to get estimates on retainers for both family court and divorce court. But at the same time I'm feeling rather hopeless that it won't do my any good, I'm going to just lose anyway so why spend the money, you know? At least if I get quotes then I can tell my dad I did call other lawyers. I'm hoping they are either more than or comparable to the lawyer I've already worked with so he relents and lets me stay with her. I'm also going to call her office and see what we can work out as far as a payment plan or something, maybe see if I qualify for pro bono.