Now on to my other life! Last night I went to bible study and we were discussing Revelation and John's stay on the Island of Patmos. The Pastor was talking about how we each have our own Patmos in life and he turned to me and said "Whatis, you've been through a Patmos, a very long and difficult one". Later on, when he asked for people to share their Patmos story and how they grew closer to God by it I spoke up. I briefly shared how a few years ago my marriage was falling apart and my father had Cancer. One day I was driving home from work feeling overwhelmed from doing my job, my homelife and rushing back and forth to the hospital to see my Dad each night. I was driving with tears coming down my face and thinking to myself "I can't do this anymore". I wasn't a Christian at the point but I just said out loud "Lord, if you exist, I need you to take something from me, I can't do this anymore" and suddenly I felt something lift. He didn't take anything from me but I suddenly felt strong like I could continue and I did. That's when I decided to start going to church and actually experience faith..." Anyway, that was my story, it ended with "My father lived but my marriage died". The Pastor then told everone "Whatis went through an incrdeibly hard time and I am still amazed at the person he has remained despite that experience. He is still a wonderful father and his two girls love him immensely" Afterwards, in private, he came up to me and thanked me for sharing my story with everyone. I felt good that I was able to share it, it's a step forward,isn't it! Part of me still wants to hide it from people, as though it is something to be ashamed of. Well, last night I didn't hide it but shared it in an appropriate manner.
