There you go again, saying what I'm thinking. I love my children more than I love myself sometimes. They are the reason my decision isn't cut & dry
I was....still am on the fence about this issue. I recall my W telling me the kids will be fine, their resilient, .....blah blah blah.
It hard with the kids...I feel I miss out on half their lives and well, I do. I only have them 50% if the time.
Continue to show your W you are not PLAN B. You are a PLAN A for someone. Getting your own apartment will show her you are OK with the outcome.
I feel now That since my W didn't use the kids as a reason to stay, I can't use that as a reason to reconcile. I believe it has to be for the right reasons. That's what I'm waiting and looking for.
You know the drill.
Hell, if my wife really wanted to reconcile, I'd have no problem with staying for the kids. She'd rather have us stay together "for the kids." Sorry hun, but I'm turning into a horrible father because I'm living in limbo, in a relationship that is totally unhealthy. Taking out my frustration on my two beautiful, innocent daughters.
Somehow she hopes that if we just stay together, things might change; though she swears she never had that "animal attraction" to me. That if we didn't have girls, she would have runaway...
I have to keep telling myself this. Remembering what she says and what she's said. I deserve and want a normal relationship.
