Wii, that's my fear. In 3 years from now will I still feel lost like I don't know if my life is missing something? What should my life be from now on? Should I become a navy seal or sign my self up for habitat for humanity or what? It would be cool to become a total badass...kick some @ss. Too bad it all requires work and possibly getting hurt
I don't really know what it is. Like wii said life ain't bad but it's that nagging feeling that there should be more to life than *this*.
In all honesty Romeo, there are always times in our lives where we wonder "is this it?". If you were still with wife and DD this would happen, maybe a death in the family would bring it up, maybe your career not going the way you want, maybe a medical issue. This is life, my friend. I also think we have in our heads that divorce is something that you just get over and have the most incredible life afterwards and if you don't, well, it's your fault. It's like Christians, who I really hope are a minority, who say "if you'd gone to church, prayed harder, sinned less this wouldn't have happened" Horsepoo! Bad things do happen to good people, that's life. I guess it's a matter of looking at what we've got and growing from it. I'm not saying life will be a bowl of cherries because I don't know that. We each have our own individual journeys, parts will be real good and parts will be bad and parts will be like right now...OK. Divorce is a trauma, it's not a flu that everyone catches and just gets over, it follows us for a long time. Therefore, we live with it, try to do better and maybe, just maybe, accept that it's OK to lack a direction, feel a little empty sometimes and be alone. There are things we can learn from these experiences and grow from. Well, that's my rambling for today, hope there's something good in there!
