I talked with W last SUN and made a 180 in my own way. I told her I will accept whatever she will do and will not stand in the way of her happiness. I told her I really changed and that I don't know how else I can show her. She didn't say much over the phone.
Then I followed up with an email which reads: "As I told you this evening, I'll accept whatever you will do. I won't stand anymore in the way of your happiness.
I am at peace with everything I did for the past 2 years to be a better person. If it's not good enough for you, your parents, or whoever else, then I don't know what else to do.
Maybe there is nothing anymore I can do. You and your parents will have to work this out on your own in your mind.
I accept the fact that I am no longer husband material in your eyes. I probably will always be a dirtbag to you and your family. That's OK. I know the Boys are the ones who truly know how much I did my best to truly change.
I don't mind anymore what everybody else may think of me. I am truly at peace with what I have done for the past 2 years. I have done nothing immoral, illegal, or unethical.
Maybe this letter is long overdue. I used to think that I should walk on eggs and be careful. But after 2 years and 4 months, what difference will it make whatever I may sayno more?
Anyway, thanks for reading all this, listening to me on the phone. I'm looking forward to seeing the boys again and be with them. As always, you are welcome to join us anytime"
So I believe this is the equivalent of dropping the Bomb, right?
I'm now with the Boys and I'm going to attend S13's football game for the first time. W didn't object to it at all. She'll be there as well, I think. So More to follow.
Joel
The Great Purge caused some anxiety here, me included.
I am not a resident expert, but from my signature you may find the answer to the little bit of wisdom I have learned here.
