H's MLC - he is still lost but I found myself

[Mila]

Hello my friends....after contemplating this for a while, I'm starting a new tread...thank you lance for giving me the last push.

This seems to be good time for it because I feel that I'm finally ready to let him completely go, let the business go...let my old life go and concentrate on the future...and the future will be what I make it...me..only me...he is on his own. I still love him...the old him...but definitely don't love who he's become. If he ever wakes up and that's a big if...I'll see then if there is still room for him in my life and in my heart.

My update:

H flew off to see OW, business is at stand still, no major contracts at all in September. Creditors are threatening collection and we basically live on credit. Last week at our B meeting H told me that he is not going to give up on business and wants to borrow more money to keep it going.
I can't do this anymore. I can't let him drag us down financially any further.

I went to see a lawyer we are working on a separation agreement. Hoping to make him a proposal and really hoping that he will just sign it. If he does I will end up with the house and the equity that will be left after paying off all the debts. I'll resign as a director of the company and will no longer be responsible for any debts. I will remain a shareholder and an employee. I'll remove my name from all joint accounts and lines of credit. I'm putting my house up for sale and looking for a job. Now I just want it all done...I can't wait to be separate financially from him. That's going to be such a relief.....