I struggle with the emails from my W, I continually read them and see attachment from her still. Constantly I'm tested and really haven't had time to deal with myself. Now, I'm going to implement a win situation for me. Give up? Not really, but I can't control the outcome and must detach from that point of view.
Do I want a divorce? No. Can I stop her from divorcing me? No.
Do I know how to do the right thing in my reality? Well No, but I have an opportunity to change the dynamic right now. I'm stuck in a position on how I view myself coming out of this, I didn't give my W her quick and ez divorce which in fact created several results. Now the results I'm faced with is how to live up to my word and lead; verses How do I do this without sacrificing my beliefs and values.
