CTH, that's just it, I don't care to go to these events. Like I have no desire...it will do nothing for me. Some of these events are free through work. Like this weekend I got invited to a NASCAR race...I used to race cars before DD was born it was my passion but I declined, why? I don't really know but I didn't feel that 'oooh! let's go watch it' it was like 'pffft, whatever- I'd rather go ride my motorcycle or wrench on my race car'.
Wii, that's my fear. In 3 years from now will I still feel lost like I don't know if my life is missing something? What should my life be from now on? Should I become a navy seal or sign my self up for habitat for humanity or what? It would be cool to become a total badass...kick some @ss. Too bad it all requires work and possibly getting hurt
Luv, I think there're two things at play here i.e. being individually happy and being content with how things are overall. I know I, as an individual, can be happy for the most part. However, overall I feel this different life I have now is less than what I'd imagined or expected. I think it feels more complicated because of DD...when I compare my childhood with hers I feel it's not fair that she doesn't get to experience and have those memories to savor for her lifetime- memories of us together doing the family stuff.
I don't really know what it is. Like wii said life ain't bad but it's that nagging feeling that there should be more to life than *this*.
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
