Albuquerque living

[Albuquerque]

Journaling,

Still observing some changes in H. He has been calling me more whereas previously, he would just text or email. He seems more willing to come over more. For example, I texted him to let him know about a schedule issue with D since I had some contract work through my company develop. Rather than text back, he calls me and starts talking to me about it and asking questions. During the conversation, we discovered that the website I slapped together really fast wasn't working quite right. I am NOT computer savvy and have very minimal website building skills. He is a software developer and can do it in his sleep. When he realized my website was messed up, he walked me through fixing it over the phone and even asked if maybe he should just come over. I told him I was fine and we got it resolved.

Today, he called in the morning and wanted to see if I wanted to go shopping with him for a gift for my brother's wedding (since I hadn't gotten a gift yet either). I haven't gone "shopping" with this man since the bomb. I agreed and once there, he recommended we buy a more expensive gift and just make it from the two of us. I agreed and didn't think much of it until *I* was wrapping it and realized that that kind of got him out of some work. But he did put forth the effort in finding the gift and card.

When he left the house this evening, he locked the door behind him. That was the first time he'd done that in I don't know how long. It was a pet peeve of mine post-MLC and was a sharp change from the man he used to be when he used to always keep the door locked. So the fact that he took the time to do it may indicate a change in concern for D and me. He still seemed very open but slightly more reserved than earlier this week and he didn't attempt any hugs this time.

I can't help but notice that he continues to delete the fact that he comments on my FB posts on his profile. As it appears he seems to be wanting to move closer to me, I find the unspoken OW issue becoming larger and larger in my mind. I haven't broached the subject yet. I feel I will know when the time is right and there hasn't been an appropriate time yet.

On a slightly more amusing note, we still share a family calendar together to help coordinate D scheduling issues. I also use it for other meetings, gettogethers etc. I have been putting "exercise" on my calendar to remind myself of my pole dancing classes. He's never bothered to notice. But this week, he asked what it was. I was vague and said just a work out. Then later, he asked if it was triathlon related. Although I didn't REALLY want to tell him, I also thought it might be funny to blow his mind a little bit since that is totally NOT something I would have done pre-MLC. But rather than blurt it out, I just responded....not exactly. Then he said that was vaguish at which point I finally admitted what my "exercise" was. Needless to say, he was speechless, surprised, and confused, but then said it was awesome. I found the whole thing funny.