Mr. A and I have been divorced now for a little over two months.
Three measly days after our D was final, Mr. A sidled up to me with his sweet talk and I fell for it. He didn't apologize or say that he wanted me back forever, he just slipped back into my life with as little explaining as possible.
Not only did I allow it, but I totally embraced it!
My friends on this board warned me that his intentions might not be pure, so I stopped coming to the board very much.
In the past two months, we've had some good times and some bad times. The biggest difference is my current mental state.
I think Mr. A is cheating on me again or at least looking to cheat again. (Yes, you all warned me!) This time, I will not tolerate it. IMHO, George W. Bush said one smart thing during his presidency: "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me."
So that's where things stand with Mr. A and me. I feel like he's fooling me twice. And not always being very nice or kind, either! I've continued to make an effort to work things out with him, but he vacillates. And he behaves badly.
Warning - I may come out sounding like a real bitter b**ch in my next few posts, but I'm pretty fed up with our situation. I'm almost positive that he's pursuing other women - most likely the affair partner that he left me for! - and I'm totally over his philandering. I have no use for it whatsoever.
OTOH, I still want to give him every chance possible to succeed, I don't want to assume the worst, and I want to try to find out what makes this man I married tick. I don't know after 12 years so I may never know, but I'm still trying.
My next post will be the email that I sent him tonight. If nothing else, I want to learn for the future how to relate better in intimate relationships...
