Antlers, thank you! I am questioning everything I've done and said. Scrutinizing it. Beating myself up. This was a place I came to for support. Not to feel judged. I didn't expose to be a jerk. I exposed to try to find supporters. I exposed to make the affair less exciting. I exposed to push them into reality. I will admit none of that has worked. But now what?
You've got plenty of support and empathy here. I hope you don't feel judged...I don't believe that is anybodys intention. I understand completely why you exposed. I would have done the same thing. You had every right to do it. And...DO NOT blame yourself, at all, because your exposure didn't do what you thought it might. He didn't make any of his continued adulterous choices because of your exposure. In fact, nothing that he does concerning his cheating is because of you. He owns those choices all on his own. He might try to blame it on you though.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
