She's in MLC, but I was weak. Now what?

[crushednstuck]

Thanks eric, the good thing about quitting the MC is that I don't have to watch her delusions unfold. And sharing my thoughts on the R when she's not ready to make any effort to make things work, seems really unfair and unbalanced.

I just got off the phone with her following an update on the kids. I think she knew she'd been making me twist for a year now and there were some awkward pauses while I think she waited for me to bring it up. I'm tempted to get a temperature check on her just to see how long she's renewed her lease for, what she's planning because of the financial implications of it all. But, of course, there's some curiosity to be satisfied too.

It's odd; she shares work travails, friendship issues, shopping stories and seemingly moves forward without a hitch. I'm playing the part - just absent the benefits. My IC thinks she's waiting for some caveman behavior to satisfy her issue with me. W called me stoic, and my IC guesses W is waiting for me to pummel OM and grab her by the hair and drag her back to the fire.

I'm building a fire. Maybe I'll grill some steaks.

MIL and FIL are coming to town tomorrow to see my son play. Feel sorry for them because I sense they are reluctantly performing their parental duty to their daughter and can't reach out to me without betraying her. I know they love me for being a good father to their grandkids. It's got to be tough.