Still trying to find my way

[Mystik]

Thank you everyone. Hoping the meds can improve my depression. I'm going into that numb, devoid of all emotions stage.

Just getting home from picking up DS. H was 27 minutes late dropping him off, and he did not have DS do his homework and forgot to bring DS's jacket back with him. He signed DS up for swim lessons out by him, and was telling me about them. I nodded and he asked if I was doing the not talking to him again. I said "I nodded" and then didn't say anything more to him. I did cry on the drive home, it's practically a physical pain how much I miss him.

So, no contact until Sunday now. I hate this no-contact even though I know it's better this way. I want him to e-mail or text, but at the same time am afraid of what he will say.