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...I wish...there is no tension...but there is some.


Be careful for what you wish.

There is ZERO tension between X and myself. She and I speak freely and comfortably.

The problem is that I still love her and miss having a family with her and our two kids.

The surrealist aspect of this is that she has said to me on more than one occasion as we ended a phone convo, "I love you."

She did so this very evening.

As I have said many times: "It's a fine madness."

Possibly the "madness" is my own.

"The answers are within you" (can't remember who). Unfortunately, so is the bullshit.