Now I'm Walking Away

[NotCrackingUp]

I know what you mean. I'd have gone mad without them, in this situation, but I sometimes think how easy it would be to just up and leave him at it, put lots of miles between us, act proud and walk tall, if I didn't have children. I love them so much, they're living proof we had a strong deep love once, whatever happens. And they don't "bounce back" as people say. They hate to see parents separate. However, kids pick up on things adults don't see, so they'll also suffer from tension between you at home, or sadness on your part if Mrs Pinhead continues pussyfooting about "feelings" and "attraction". In this house, there were no rows, but one of my daughters spent last autumn and winter waking me up every night at 3 or 4 am, terrified that "something bad was going to happen". At the time, my H was in the middle of a very serious and passionate PA, and I knew nothing. My daughter knew nothing either, just felt a sense of foreboding that translated into night terrors.

Just a thought - I've read that IVF tratment, with allthe hormonal treatments and emotional ups and downs, can play havoc with a woman's desire levels. A former colleague of mine had a little boy through IVF just when I had my son, so we followed each other's pregnancies. She said on several occasions she felt like nothing more than a uterus on legs and was heartily sick of her husband during and even after the process. Their little boy is great, they're ok now, but they nearly split on several occasions after the treatment. She believes she's still feeling the after-effects, seven years on.Just a thought.
A big hug.
NCU