I'm just worried about my girls. That's the one thing both me and my W have always done is put them first. It wasn't easy for us to have kids (needed to do IVF), and they mean the world to both of us.
I even have moments where I wish I didn't have children...
God, Pinhead. I understand!
W had the twins after being told she couldn't have kids. Went through IVF and were blessed beyond all measure. Three years later, after still being told she couldn't have kids "naturally", D was born. And what happened three years after that? Yep, another S. I wouldn't trade any of them for the world. We can't afford four kids but have somehow been able to make it. Are there moment when I wish we didn't have kids? Yes, there are. This would be easier.
I always quickly realize how much of a gift they truly are. I am blessed to have them in my life. My W used to be with me on raising the kids and putting them first. Not any longer. She is #1 and gets very defensive if anyone suggest otherwise.
But, as Sandi once told me; being a great dad does not automatically make you a great husband. I get this now. Yes, the kids should come first, but we failed to make enough time for each other as husband and wife. It could be fixed, but only if she wants to. Me letting her go find out how tough it really will be on her own is the only way to find out.
Hand in there. You are "one of my favorite posters"!! You can and will do what's right for you and for your kids!
You can and will do what's right for you and for your kids!