It was strange, while on the gas i was able to lay there and relax. Let all my worries kinda not matter. I layed there thinking about my H and myself. I had this peacefulness come over me that I could let go of him and be ok.
OR it may have just been the gas
Too bad we can't have laughing gas all the time!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
It was strange, while on the gas i was able to lay there and relax. Let all my worries kinda not matter. I layed there thinking about my H and myself. I had this peacefulness come over me that I could let go of him and be ok. 
