So last week I had a much better week. Found out that H does indeed have OW. In some ways it was almost a relief - I was able to detach a little more. This week - not so much. Knowing the complete 180 his life has taken - hanging in a biker bar, etc. - is again devastating to me. I don't want these things to get to me - but I feel overwhelmed with "standing". Today I thought about this: I am not "physically" married right now I am not "emotionally" married right now I am not "financially" married right now I am "spiritually" married right now and I am "legally" married right now. My way of living is FAR removed from his. Is it still possible to stand this way? Who / what am I right now?
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
