Faith, Man, I told you that you were in good hands. Listen to these folks and keep the stuff J3B says to you in your head.
You will make it through this. Keep up the reading. No matter how this ends up, I can't think of a better place for you to be right now.
The detaching thing is hard. I fight with the detach thing every day. There is a reason for that very thing to be first on Cadets list. I am not a pro at it either. I know I am way better at it than I was several months ago.
That is my point though, you have to keep at it (detaching) to get your head out of the mess.
You get to watch from a distance. That is about all you can do anyway right now.
