Many of us on are the alt so you can always get a hold of someone that way was well. Become a fan of DB and I am sure that Cadet will find you and direct you to the right people.
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It's been a rough few days.
Just remember one thing…it can always be worse. Do you have a bed to sleep in? Did you eat today? Are your children clothed? Really Jennifer it can be worse. One of the hardest thing we fight is our internal desire to really look for the silver lining in any difficult sitch. Think about that….can you find a silver lining in YOUR sitch (psstt…here is a hint…it has NOTHING to do with YOUR H)?
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I'm growing sooo mentally exhausted from being blamed for HIS issues.
You know I used to tell my staff all the time that “in difficult sitch’s stars shine”…”when the going get tough…the cream always rises to the top”. Your exhausted but not defeated OR are you? You are only defeated when YOU feel you are defeated? Maybe you are mentally exhausted because you are spending so much time “thinking” about your sitch as opposed to “thinking” about what YOU want, What YOU need, and where YOU want your life to go.
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It's like the past 4 years have meant nothing and he admitted tonight that he did in fact come back solely for the kids sake 4 years ago. He said maybe he came back for the wrong reasons but not with the wrong intentions.
Screams confusion if ya ask me.
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I just don't get it guys.
Replace “guy” with “woman” and I would say ditto. 
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Guess it's not for me to get right? Why the H did he try to make me believe for the past 4 years that everything with us was SOOO great?
Ahh…your at that “I need to figure it all out stage”….yeah I have been there before. Guess what…ya can’t figure HIM out. YOU now that is a different story..then again…looking at oneself is so much harder..
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And now this...we are right back where we were.
Are you? So are you telling me that you have not grown?
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I am so tired of being blamed.
Jennifer, I am about to post on my blog that YOU are the reason for global warming…DO YOU BELIEVE THIS?
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So tired. I do not know who this man is...and
Then rest and…get to know who the real Jennifer is…maybe try that for a few weeks.
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I swear there has to be someone else and he is denying denying.
Even if there is and I would not suggest that you try and find out…even if there is…does that person make you less attractive, less appealing, less intelligent? Yes, BUT only if YOU never felt this way about yourself to begin with. Jennifer, you need to detach from all of this so that you can find the Jennifer that is better than this, the Jennifer that is strong. I am not saying D his butt..NO…I am saying leave him in God hands and YOU just FOCUS ON YOU for a while.
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I am growing to hate this man.
You have to FIRST LOVE something to HATE it. BOTH ARE choices that each of us make. So which will you choose….anger and bitterness OR…love and compassion. Before you answer….consider the following….
”for better or for worse”….
“unconditional”
“compassion”
“peace”
“patiences”
“grace”
OR
“anger”
“pissed off”
“want to kick his f*cking as*”
“hate”
“resentment”
“disappointed”
“un-met expectations”
Which of the above words MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER? Not make your H change…NO …which ones MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER?
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
