Wow - thank goodness the site is back up! I was missing my support!!
It's been a rough few days. I'm growing sooo mentally exhausted from being blamed for HIS issues. It's like the past 4 years have meant nothing and he admitted tonight that he did in fact come back solely for the kids sake 4 years ago. He said maybe he came back for the wrong reasons but not with the wrong intentions. I just don't get it guys. Guess it's not for me to get right? Why the H did he try to make me believe for the past 4 years that everything with us was SOOO great? And now this...we are right back where we were. I am so tired of being blamed. So tired. I do not know who this man is...and I swear there has to be someone else and he is denying denying. He asks me "why does this have to be about 'someone else'?" Which of course makes me think that he is just smoke and mirrors because I know how he operates. I think that he wants himself and everyone else to believe that this is all my fault and that it has nothing to do with 'someone else' if there is a someone else.
I am growing to hate this man.
Jen ... you need to detach, and stop buying what he's trying to sell to you!
You are not to blame for his issues, and you know it, so stop letting it affect you and exhaust you!
You can not read his mind ... maybe he came back for the kids and made an honest try, maybe he didn't and it's all been bull ... you can't tell so stop beating yourself up over it.
Sounds like text book crisis to me, and it was interupted 4 yrs ago when he came back and now it's rearing it's ugly head again. Don't buy into his spew, DETACH!
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
