no reason to keep stalking his info. You have the intel you need if D is what is going down. You have the password. If you have a L ask them what info they need but seems as if the A is already proved so...this is just punishment and sabataging yourself. Maybe you are still a little in denial?? If your h ever wanted to recon, how would you get all this out of your head?
The images and words are going to stay in your mind and heart and no matter what happens to your m, whether it ends b/c of this, or he wants back in, you are sabataging your own recovery and healing. Doesn't seem like a good idea.
I do think your point about you GAL being helpful makes sense. But don't use that as a stalling tactic to justify the continued self inflicted wounds. I strongly believe You do NOT need this info. If you really have a legal question about it, ask your L. But once an A is proved or admitted, is there really any gain to be had by more evidence of it? Isn't this only relevant if you're suing for div based on fault? The main thing now is to just stop. How? Some people are helped by Doing the stop sign image in their mind, so every time the image comes up of them together, then put a STOP SIGN in your mind and change topics....find a "happy place" within and go there. Many have been where you are and have recovered, but not by reading emails between spouses and OPs every day. Learn from them. GAL, detach, focus on you and your future and imagine life without him but with some positive images in there. It's really important not to focus only on the loss aspects. Good luck, j
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
