cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[ClingingToHope]

D8 keeps asking me if I still love STBXW. I tried to give her more of a grownup response and she grabbed her head like someone was yelling at her. So I said, "I will always love your mom."

Kids definitely see things differently. D11 said STBXW and I fought all the time. I didn't think so, especially compared to how my parents and STBXW's parent fought.

But the girls can't make that comparison. We probably had arguments once every couple of months. The rest of the time we just kind of avoided conversation.

It's been seven weeks since I heard anything on the D. Apparently, there's some meeting set for Oct. 19. I'm not spending a single dime more than I have to. I guess I don't feel married anymore and there's no rush to spend additional money to finish the process.