M, the negative self talk isn't helping you. You are a pretty lady (and I saw your pix!!!) with a huge heart. You will find someone to love you and just you. I know how hard it is, but you have to let H go.
32 is young. Hell, I'm 40 and I'm quite sure that I'll find another good man. Maybe even soon. I have no doubt that you can too. I've been making it a point to smile, flirt and interact w/men everyday - for the practice and just to remind myself H isn't the only man out there.
H spent his bday last week w/whore. Thought about him, but didn't contact. Pointless. That is what H chose. Miss H terribly at times, but it's a lot easier just accepting that H threw a good woman away over for a stupid (so I've heard) whore.
If you need to talk, mail me in the alt.
((((hugs))))
M & H: 40 M: 5.5 T: 7.5 OW: 7/09 Bomb: 9/09 Sep: 3/10 H files 7/10
