LBS Living...

[irishblessings]

Wow - am I glad this site is back. While you were gone...

H told kids he is dating a bartender! She is around his age. H never went to bars - MLC H goes to biker bars! Wake me up - who is this person???

Me? I am trying to be better...do better! I am trying to stay stable for my S and girls. I'm trying to be more productive at work. I am trying to stay busy - stay calm - stay centered. Some days I am more successful than others!

I think I am still somewhat in denial. I haven't let go emotionally yet - at least not all the way. I have made strides but not there totally yet. I wonder what it really means. Does it mean you are no longer standing? I know that I cannot engage him in conversations at this point. I am not healed enough. I worked with my IC today and she asked me why I am so afraid of getting angry with H. I really don't know exactly how to answer it - but I am convinced that no good can come from me engaging in exchanges with a sick person. Even though he may not be engaging in the phone sex hookups or PAs - he is involved with this new woman (bartender) - while he is still legally married to me.

I just want to live a clean life and enjoy my friends and family.

So that's my update...

Hope all is well with you friends!