Didn't hear from H last night or this morning before I took the kids to school. After I dropped them both off, I got a text from him asking me if I wanted to meet him so he could take my cell and upgrade mine to a crackberry (lol). I said sure, so we met in a parking lot, both got out of our cars and he came over, kissed me on the cheek and gave me a huge hug. (which was nice) I stared at him for a few seconds and said "I hope you know how much I truly care about you" - he said "sometimes I don't think you do" I said "ok, I guess I don't understand why" He started talking about our relationship from the past again and how he just can't get all the negative thoughts out of his head. He said he just wants to be happy and he doesn't know how to do that. That he just doesn't know what to do at this point. He feels like he is losing his family and he is worried he is going to lose his business. I stood calmly and listened. I said "I can understand the negative thoughts I guess because now I have them too" And he said that it worries him that I will ALWAYS have the negative thoughts now (because of what he's done) and that I won't ever be able to get over them. I still just stood calmly and listened. He asked what I was thinking and I said "I'm just listening...and there really isn't anything I can say right now to change the way you feel...I can't remove those negative thoughts from your mind" He said he was sorry. Then we talked about S8 for a minute. He said he would let me know when the phone was done. I said and how are you going to do that? You'll have my phone, lol! He said "yeah - you are right -thanks for making me laugh, I needed that" He asked if it would be okay if he picked up S8 from school and went to the house to do laundry. I said that would be fine.
