Getting to the point where you are now takes different times for everyone.
It took me 8 months to reachthat point. I think it is natural to feel the way you feel righht now. I have seen it here before where the LBS becomes the WAS.
If you truely believe you will be OK no matter the outcome, you will see a change in your W.
Hang in there and know what you wnat in a R.
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