Wow, from sex to porn names to sports. My thread has a little of everything!
Had an unsettling dream last night. Dan was, for some reason, building a second house for himself. As in, he was the one doing the work to build it.
I can't remember how I found out or why but I went there to see him, maybe he asked me there, I can't remember. I said something about him needing a different house and he said that by May I wouldn't want to ever talk to him again. And I said, "Why, because you guys are having a baby now?"
And he said "Yes. We are." And I was eerily calm in my dream. I just said, "I figured that would happen. It doesn't mean anything. If having a baby meant commitment from you then you wouldn't be where you are now."
I am good with the dream up until there. Because it really is true. And I doubt I would be surprised if she wound up pregnant. Upset, yes, surprised, no.
But then, in the dream, I said, "You know we could still get back together. If your loyalty is with the one who has your children, I already have two. We can always get visitation with your new child." WTF? And then he said he could not believe how calm I was, and I said I was not really surprised, but that once I got home I was sure I would cry about it. And he tried to hug me then bc I was about to cry, but instead I turned around and walked out of the house.
**Although, at my IC yesterday we talked about the possibility of ow being pregnant. Or even the possibility that there was already a child out there...though that is less likely. Maybe that just put it in my brain.
