I have a meeting with my counselor today at 4:00pm. I am waiting until then to do anything drastic.
You don't need to do anything drastic at all. Are you listening to anyone here? Helllloooo, John, you there? Listen up buddy, we're all trying to talk to you here.
You called her, you tested by saying ILY, you drove by her house when she didn't say it back . . . Do you realize what kind of stalker vibe you're giving off? I would've freaked out on you too. You need to start looking at this from your W's perspective. She's been viewing this as over for some time. You, however, you've just woken up comparatively. So to her you're just the guy who can't get it through his head and you're starting to get creepy about it. Maybe she lied to you because she was scared you'd show up where ever she was. Maybe she was with a OM. Who knows, who cares? Fact is, in her mind this is over, she's moving on. You're clinging to her and she knows it. She knows she can return at any time and find that good old familiar comfort with you. She knows it will always be there because you will not move on. So she uses that to her advantage.
Like everyone else has said, it's time to move on John. Quit worrying about her, who she's with, where she's at. I understand it's hard, but it's the only way YOU are going to come out of this intact in any way. Move on.
Me: 24 H: 26 2 SS: 7 & 5; D: 3 H filed D papers: 8/2/10 OW discovered: 08/10 D papers counter-filed: 10/2/10 There is no method to my madness
