I'm so screwed up right now. I'm so lost and confused. I fixed everything that was an issue with me before. I became the person he fell in love when we first met. I can't believe we are right back where we were. The last 4 years of him telling me how happy he was with us, how wonderful our marriage was, was all a lie?
Jennifer, You're not the one that is screwed up, your H is. Try not to take what he is saying personally. I know all too well how hard this is to do and, yes, I've blown many a gasket at my H recently. The issues have very little to do with you. Your H is obviously still in a lot of turmoil and until he deals with those issues the problems will keep recurring no matter how many changes you make to yourself. Try to detach as much as possible and set some boundaries that you think you will be able to enforce.
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz
