Just thinking out loud. Well I'm pleased and puzzled at the same time. Since H left for his trip on Saturday he's called THREE different times. Two times I was out so he left voicemails, last nights' vm said he'd try again today. I'm amazed! This is a guy who, for our whole marriage, would leave on trips and I'd be lucky if he'd call me even ONCE. I can't believe it! It's wonderful... but I'm not really sure what I'm doing right, other than the GAL to have received such a great change.

When I look back at the year it looks like I've done some things very wrong. Coach said in Pinhead's thread that if you want someone to be attracted to you, you have to give them what they need. But I feel like all I've done is ask for what I need. H and I haven't talked much at all about what he needs.

So this is a little concerning to me. I almost feel like I've railroaded him. I don't want my M to be only about his needs, but don't want it to be only about mine either.

I also know he's said in the past that if he brings up something I've done that he doesn't like, I get angry, upset and overreact. So I fear now he won't speak up about his needs and concerns because of that. But if he won't speak up, how can we work though it and fix it? IDK maybe I'm worrying for nothing. Wouldn't be the first time! But Coach's comment yesterday just stuck in my head. IDK.

I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.