ib-Thank you for your encouragement. It is early in this process with many obstacles still ahead. This is the forward movement I have waited so long for but I have to remind myself that things could change again...but I am strong and I can handle whatever happens.
Cas-My D is 17. Before, that kind of interaction would have sent my H running for the door. He somehow seems more resolved to work through things but not totally. He still has the attitude that we really shouldn't have to work that hard to be together. He also still sees some things from his MLC perspective where our previous relationship (even post bomb) was riddled with a lot of issues...some of those I agree with and some I think he is way off base. I have been waiting for years for him to have an epiphany realizing our marriage was actually pretty decent...all the experts tell you that there usually are no epiphanies in MLC and now I see that is true. He hasn't completely let go of all of the excuses he came up with to justify his leaving. Sorry if I rambled there!
Lance-I am preparing myself that things will not always be easy. I still have my some doubts about how I feel as well. Though, he is easing some of my doubts by the effort he is making. This is much more like my old H and something he hasn't really done in years. It does scare me to think he could shift into reverse again...but at this point, I feel like I have to take the risk because he is trying.
punkin-Thanks for the prayers.
Albuquerque-I hope the forward momentum continues...I will keep you posted.
Di-How are you doing? You deserve to be a priority too...everyone here does. Reminding myself that I deserve to be treated better gave me strength. So, keep reminding yourself. Thanks for your well wishes...we will see what happens.(((HUGS)))
