All this indecisive crap will kill a person's brain after a while, should I? maybe not? but maybe I should? I'm not sure what I should do? BLAH, BLAH, BLAH
Do what you want to do.
Definetely maybe respond.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.