Since I brought up attorney and mediation, she is all for talking about finances now. Is she sincere about this? Don't know - My suspicions are = She is scared I will stop the Divorce and she's trying to cover up the financial screw ups. Do I want to delay the Divorce? Yes and No
Yes - Reasons: Need binding financial agreement with witnesses; chance for her to see things differently; chance to buy time for a change of heart; Show her I'm not scared of how she will react; To follow through when I told her if I found out that she's been lieing to me, I would pursue a Lawyer for protection; Make her do more than just get what she wants (i.e. You want divorce so bad, you do all the work); So I don't feel like I just gave in and ran.
No - Reasons why I'm tempted to give in: So I can run too; So I can drop her from insurance and she can feel the financial pinch; I can do whatever the hell I want from scratch; So I never have to deal with her again - Begin letting go for real; So she can't say I'm just being vindictive; So she can't say I didn't love her enough to let her go; So I can continue to just do like I've always done and just give up (aka Go play Warcraft, drink til I cant see str8, and pretend probs don't exist anymore; So she can bang whoever the f*ck she wants, fall flat on her face if she chooses, and I don't ever have to worry about her again.
My comments are about the bold.
Everything I bolded is WHAT IT IS RIGHT NOW.
Notice there are things in the NO section. I don't see how you can't change dissoultion to Mediated Divorce and still do the bolded stuff.
You are still making a lot of this about HER.
The focus is supposed to be on YOU.
What is best for FAITH? -proper mediated divorce -full legal protection -complete disclosure of her financials
It is YOUR reactions to HER behaviours that is driving you nuts.
Isolate yourself from her craziness by getting a mediated setllement arranged.
Then you can get your life back with full legal protection.
