Here's a story...of a very sad lady

[Dagny-2]

Right now H is paying all the bills associated with everything but the PA condo, I pay them from a small joint checking account. He is still paying the mortgage and credit card bills and his apartment bills. I'm curious if I don't say anything if he will keep paying my credit card bills, I'm planning to get new tires for the car and put them on "my" credit card. Since I know the amount of his paycheck, I know what is going to the secret account. But I do need L advice, I will make that phone call tomorrow to set it up. And then the 2nd half of October I must start acting on the advice I receive.

Maybe confrontation is not the right word, but whenever I defend myself, he gets angry and lashes out at me. I need to get stronger to survive those lashes. Avoiding talking to him helps me break that cycle. I learned my lesson with telling him what I learned in regards to divorce laws last time, so I will keep quiet. I also need to stop making references to OW as that causes him to defend her and lash out at me.

The boys are starting to say when we more back to PA, as many times as they are saying IF, so I think they are coming to terms with that possibility.

The strength that is needed to navigate these waters is incredible. I think it is time I start setting my GAL goals, I've had 6 weeks of moping, time to get on with it!

Dagny