So I've decided to just set aside this "my H is indifferent to me being in his life" 'label' for a bit - I'm not going to just sweep it under the rug and try to forget about it. My feelings are still a little hurt about those discussion too, and I'm not going to just sweep those away either. .
More separated at birth stuff!
I have that poisonous thought far too often. And it really is poisonous.