cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

More strange...


Last night H came to pick up S. We both thought that with the game S didn't get to be with just H enough so last night was a little extra time. I acted more distant than normal because with the feelings coming back I needed the distance. I text H and let him know why I was acting the way I was because I just need some distance for a while and then I can go back to being more friendly. I just need time for these feelings to simmer down again.

Anyway I text H and about 10 minutes later he texts me because he lost his ipod (probably figuring that I had it...so over that stage). He kept me up 1.5 hours later than I wanted to stay up. I am really tired from staying up a little too late Sunday to watch Amazing Race (football ran over) so I needed to get to bed a little early. Plus I hadn't been sleeping well last week. He kept texting me and saying how he looked here or there. I just told him to wait until morning, but he couldn't help it and even went out and bought a new one. He calls at 9:30 pm to talk about his feelings and where he had looked. I gave him a few other suggestions just in case he didn't think of it. Finally at 10:15 he texts me that he found it stuck in a chair at his parents. I said I am glad and that was that.

Here is my thing. I have text him twice saying how I need to have some space for a while and he keeps pursuing (I don't think as a husband, but more as a friend). What is up with that? He has OW. Why not call her and text her about it? Why me?

With OW, I know they are still a "thing", but at the same time I don't think it will ever be more than that. I saw on OW's H's facebook page that they just bought a brand new car and it says they are still married. Now on everything with H he has her listed with her maiden name. Maybe to help him believe that she is no longer married. It is all so crazy. I more want to know what is going on just to know. I don't really care any more, but I do pity H because I don't think he will ever be treated like he wants from OW, but that is his problem.

This week I have parent/teacher conferences tomorrow. Friday I am going with B, SIL, nephew and S to a pumpkin patch. Saturday is black Saturday for my family...my step-sister and family move here from TN. DRAMA QUEEN!!! AW!