MLC=Twilight Zone/When do I wake up?

[MHL]

I am a little embarrassed here but the truth is I really was not looking for help. I have always been a self help person. I find myself helping others first before I help myself. I feel uncomfortable with that last sentence. I feel uncomfortable because I wish I could help more than I do.

I really hate leaning on people. I feel guilty about that.
I also acknowledge that I need help. The people on these boards are amazing. I have learned so much, by reading these boards, I have not spent any time putting out my own sitch.

Since I started posting here, I am so thankful for the help I have been given. The people here are the real deal. They would not last if they were shallow, and you can see right through them if they are. I also get the pay forward philosophy. I believe in that too. <Insert Bible passage here>.

WS,
Thanks for sharing. What you may not realize and I don't know if any of us realize just how many people read the words we write. By posting your story here you are not only helping yourself but many, many others not just the registered users on the board.

There are so many people out there lurking and never even register, you can still read all the threads.

Some people register and never post but they read....

And then there are people like us who share our stories, our pain, our tears, our struggles, our accolades and our growth while on our journey.

There are literally thousands that may be reading these words, looking for hope, in shadow of despair and anguish and hopefully they find that hope that they will survive this and that life can and will be "good" again.

So WS, keep posting and tell us more b/c you are helping many by just simply telling your story.