It is not you need to "Go Dark" whatever that means but accept the "darkness" that is being shown to you.
You are who you are. You did what you did. There is nothing to be ashamed of.
You need to continue living the life you were given. Someone above said you need to figure out why you did what you did. Well Yes, you do. But don't let it overtake your life. There was a reason for it and that reason might still exist. Find happiness within yourself so that you may share it with others.
