I think this is over now. I'm starting to go through many changes. Feeling angry then hurt then freedom then crying etc. so I'm hoping I'm beginning the stages of allowing my mind to absorb and deal with what's happening.
The lies are never going to stop and he has already stated that he doesn't want me looking at phone anymore. He's dumping everything on me now and taking no responsibility so I know he's gone.
Im going to move to the surviving the d forum. People seem to get good advice about moving on and such there. Unfortunately for me I have absolutely no desire to meet someone else. I would like to be alone and find myself again before I invite someone else into my life. Easier said. This is going to be a very lonely ride.
My hope is to come back to this thread in a year and actually be happy. This is the hardest thing I ever had to do. I have to let go.
Geez, I keep hearing that Gaga crap...Let me go..Alejandro.. At least it makes me laugh...
