Had a great time last night! Stayed at a hotel for the night and slept well. Woke up to her texts good morning and apologizing for talking smack about the work around the house. I didn't respond. I got home at 10a picked up the baby, she told me she had given baths, kid related stuff. I changed the baby and left. She texted saying she did all the laundry and asked if I'd switch the load. I said yes and said Thank You BTW... Regarding doing the house work.
Today is her appt for the counselor (might as well call it IC), not sure if she even went, but she left at the time she should have. I returned home after she said she'd left.
I got my call returned from a man regarding Retrouvaille. I told I wasn't sure If she'd be willing to go. He said give her my number and I'll speak with her. She seemed to be in a good mood, so I called her on the phone. I asked if if she'd be will to go, she mentioned she thought her sister had mentioned it, and then she asked what I told them. I told her I dif not discuss us, just the program. She said she was not interested. I asked if she would at least call the guy, she said no. I told her, why don't you take the number down and think about it. She said no, I just want it over. She was crying and said I always put her on the spot. ??? Idk what that meant.
I did buy her a book for our anniversary last week, How to Make a Marriage Last... Written by couple married for 30-50 years. I know now I shouldn't have, she said she would read it then said she wouldn't. I threw it in the trash can later with the card I gave her. She brought that up on the phone asked why I did that and that it was hers and she might read it someday. I told her I thought you didn't want it. Then she asked if I spent the night at another girls house last night, I told her no I wouldn't do that to you. So she refused Retro and we hung up. She texted after, I'm sorry.
I just get a feeling she's not being open, so I texted her, I don't care what you've done, I forgive you. And left the number for the guy at Retro. A few minutes later, she asked what the program was called again and where it was. I told her. We texted. I told her to have a good day and please don't cry.
After noon, probably following her appt, she texted, I'm not crying.. I was just wondering what it was called again... Sorry for crying... U have a good day too... Let me know when u sign up for that class (co-parenting). So she appears to be still wanting it over, since she wants to attend that class mandatory to proceed to divorce.
I haven't talked to her much, but I had to ask about Retro... As the earlier person suggested, there is no right time. I only discussed that and dropped it. I fear she has made her mind up and doesn't want to talk to anyone, go to anything, or even consider listening to reason, because she DOESN'T want anything to change her mind. Feeling HOPELESS.
