Albuquerque living

[MHL]

Here's what it said.

In red is what he really said.

"Alone, scared. More drugs, that will do it, right? We'll see.

I'm alone and I don't like it and I only have myself to blame. I am scared that I made the wrong decision and I want to make sure your still my backup plan and that you are still there. I will tell you that I am going to use drugs to see if you still care about me but I love myself too much and I am too selfish to ever harm myself. We'll see, means that I will still be around b/c this is just a bullchit way to draw you into my MLC storm and draw attention to me, because after all it is all about ME!!!"

AL,
My wife threaten suicide and actually spent a week in the hospital under suicide watch, total attention grabbing stunt. Don't get me wrong, I am not suggesting that we don't respond to someone threatening to hurt themselves but rather that we put it into MLC perspective.

Fell asleep on the couch; now mostly naked in bed. An improvement of sorts.

I don't want you to think I am really crazy, I just wanted you to call, I'm really okay and just missing you and I am a little horny and having to jump on a plane and fly out west to have a PA is getting old already. I hope you call.

Ping you later. "

Well, just in case you haven't respond to my non-sense I will be calling you. See I wasn't serious about hurting myself upthere, I was just trying to draw you in. I really hope it works!!!

Al,
Your H is spinning, don't get drawn in. Just as Grit said, you did not break him and you can't not fix him. If you want to truly help him, be strong and let him take this journey on his own. You work on YOU.

Cheers