After lots of contact on Friday and him ending the e-mails with 'I'll wait for your call/text' for me to finish work on Saturday for him to come over, he pulled back. I know to expect it but it still hurt a little.
He was going to hook up my wireless internet and fix a computer issue. About an hour before I sent a text to him to see if he was still available, I could feel it... He said no sorry, could we do it the next day since some mutual friends of ours were coming over to the house.
I know he is telling the truth because I am still in contact with a neighbor and she told me about the pick-up that was in the driveway, our friend's.
I wasn't sure how to respond. I sent a text back telling him I wasn't sure the following day would work since I had plans, wasn't sure what time etc. He offered to come to work to get my key and do it while I was at work. I politely declined. He then told me to let him know if it would work to come over and he would wait.
I did tell him to come over. I was dressed to the 9's. After him struggling for 1.5 hours to get the thing hooked up. I finally told him politely that I needed to go. He acted like a bee stung him and practically ran out of the apartment. Telling me he was sorry for holding me up etc.
God, I don't know if I did the right thing. He wasn't able to get the wireless working which was the point- to give him a chance to 'feel like a man'. But he was so closed up and obviously uncomfortable in the apartment. Trying not to look at me. Commenting that the pets seem happier here. He is working hard to justify his decision and keep distance between us when we are in the same room. Yet, he warms up to me with written communication. I am feeling pretty frustrated and defeated today. The walls he constructs around himself are thick concrete. I don't know how I will ever break through them.


(Formerly blgp)
Me-35
H-33
Married 4 yrs
Together 9 yrs
"Bomb" 8/1/10
Separated 8/6/10
D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11

"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."