MLC, H and me continued...learning and living

[courageous wife]

Hi NM, Mila and GAG

Thanks for checking on me! It is so weird...it seems that my sitch has gone quite awhile without anything happening...I am starting to feel more calm, grounded and accepting of everything and now...in the last 2 weeks, some things have come to light...

I find out about "promise ring" H gave OW 2 weeks ago...

a week later, I find out H doesn't have an L at the moment...

Now...through an email message I received from our online acct from the hospital, it appears that H was recently in the hospital. I do not know for sure what he was in there for...cath lab services and recovery room were listed and the bill is over $10,000. (if you recall, H had a blocked artery last Nov and they put a stint in...at that time, all the rest of them looked good and with medication, Dr thought H would be around for a long time).

Apparenlty H did not see the need to tell anyone in his family about the latest...does the duct tape stay firmly on my mouth??? It is possible (DIL works at the hospital) that it may come to light on it's own....

I remember finding a card that OW gave to H back in Nov about how she wished she could be there to give him back rubs and take care of him after the procedure...guess she's gotten her chance afterall...

While I am still concerned for H and his health...and was initially hurt (but not surprised) when I saw that the other day that he didn't feel it necessary to inform anyone, I am sort of feeling "removed" from this whole thing...