feelings as OW seems to be on way out

[forward]

Well, former ILs came by and were very cool to me. I did feel rather hurt by this, although I am trying not to let it bother me as I am telling myself that they are worried about X. I decided to be better person; I was kind and had D make him some crafts and wrote him a letter. I even sent over pics, and I might send over books when he is feeling better. But it wasn't as if they were wondering how I was. Former FIL didn't even come to door and former MIL didn't even say hello when I opened the door.

New Guy was there when they returned. We were in fact, uh, not answering the door because we didn't hear the bell. I did not introduce him and he stayed in back. Next time I will introduce him. Perhaps from their perspective, I am the mean one for going and getting a BF while their S is sick...but it's been over three years now.

I realized this event is pulling my heart strings as I do find myself worried about X and missing him. I think I do need to be honest w/New Guy about this. Missing him doesn't mean I would get back together w/him but I do feel that I need to tell New Guy that this does stir some emotions.

ILs did hurt, though, because it brought back some of the feelings of being rejected by them. I have on occasion sent pictures and that sort of thing and have basically been cut out of their lives.