Seperated.i'm a young couple. What to do?

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Its been a while since i posted.

Ive been laying low, and popping onto the site once a week to read up on everyones situation.

Update with me, Past couple of months have been good. getting on with life, catching up with old friends and making new friends. Things have been going well, and i can't remember when i last cried about the situation.

Now a month ago my H msgs me out of the blue, asking about the dog, how is she?do i need money for vet bills? I kept the msgs, short and nice. Msgs came by weekly, then by every few days, now everyday. It was mostly talk about random things like whats been happening on news, or new movies or t.v shows. I made special note not to mention the R.

last we he asked if he could come by and see Iowa (our dog), i agreed... of course nervous on the day, and worried if we would start arguing. But it turned out to be a fun filled day hanging with the dog at the park, stil no talk of the R.

Now today he asked to come over to see the dog, and said if i wanted to catch a movie. I aggreed, happy inside but didnt want to sound too estatic. He told me how much he regreted making the harsh decisions he made and that he understood how much i meant to him. He said that after my holiday at the end of the year, that we should go to marriage counselling. I was taken back, he was always against it.

I knew i shouldnt have asked, but i had to ask if he had hooked up with anyone in the 3 months.Even though we were seperated he was entitled to do what he pleased.

He said he kissed two different girls, both girls he swapped numbers met out again. Nothing ever happened but kisses. He said he stopped msging the last girl, cause he knew he wanted to be with me.

I dont know what to do?! im guttd?! ok maybe its not as bad as sleeping with someone, but to me kissing is the same! i know i cant be mad, i can only be upset with the situation.
I sent him a long email of how i felt , and how i felt betrayed..and how i couldnt understand how can u love someone but stil look astray? I just dont get it?

am i overreacting guys??? should i just let go cause we are seperated??

I'm just so hurt, cause he cheated in the past..and it was only 6 months ago we renewd our vows, 3 months of seperation and he has already kissed 2 girls.

the email i sent was pretty harsh..i was trying to control my emotions..and i pretty much implied i dont want to work on this marriage.

Im stuck in whether i want this to work or not?? Im going away for a month end of year, and really anything could happen. But if we do go to MC when i come, back i dont know if i could handle hearing anymore if he decides to go galloping around. It makes me sick cause we seperated.

What am i to do guys? advice? am i being unreasonable cause we are seperated and i shouldnt have these expectations?

im so embrassed.